| Stuck in quicksand. I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun
With my wide eyes
I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this Keep me safe inside your arms like towers
Tower over me Cos we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And all the promise we adored
Give us life again
Cos we just wanna be whole Lock the doors
Cos I'd like to capture this voice
That came to me tonight
So everyone will have a choice
And under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
We're at war
We live like this
I've tried almost everything there is to try... Why am I still feeling so miserable? :(((
Sigh deep down inside I know the answer.
I'm so sorry to you :( I'm so so sorry... |
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| What a confusing day for my messed up head.
Haven't been thinking like thinking for quite some time so I guess alot of things just hit me all at once today. I'm still wondering though, is it that people have changed? Or were they just not what I had thought they were all along? I wouldn't say I'm disappointed in anyone or anything. More so at myself. For being so naive and just playing along with everything and everyone. Today I realised that it isn't that I'm not allowed to drop this 'exterior'. It's just that if I do drop it, things simply won't be as good for me. The better alternative is just to continue the show.
On another note... I really don't want to move on. But if things have changed, and if it's past this stage (though I really wish it isn't/wasn't just a stage), I guess the only thing that anyone can do is to accept it. And move on.
Thinking thinking thinking.
Most of the time it's really up to you how you want to react to anything, and what happens next is simply based on what you want it to be. |
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| Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back
Would you cry if you saw me crying
Would you save my soul tonight?
Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh oh please tell me these
Now would you die for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight?
I can be you hero baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away
I still remember the night you sang this song to me... My heart literally felt like it was going to engulf my whole body... I don't know how to describe it. It was like this feeling of immensity, the immensity of this love. I'll never forget it. It is one of the single most beautiful moments in my entire life. You can take my breath away<3 |
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| Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle...
Now this is one song that I definitely want to perform one day. It's super fun to sing! Love the lyrics too. Paramore!! <3
Lately, I've been more active on tumblr than xanga, so goclick on the link to check out what I've been up to. I've been mostly watching ANTM cycle 12... It's been quite boring lately. Except for the weekend. I had an amazing time serving... I really thank God because despite being sick, God still made a way and, I don't know, I just felt such... joy. From the team, and from the congregation (I hope!)... this joy in God just makes everything else bad go away :) Pastor Darick gave me some constructive feedback on worship leading, which I value a lot. Hope I'll keep growing in this area.
I kinda noticed that pretty much all the worship leaders in IGNYTE write so well :/ Wish I could write as well as them! Oh boy...
I'm really thankful that I'll be having lunch with Jo and co on Friday, and maybe I'll be catching a movie with Sis Gwen, Gerald and Rufus on Thursday. I was so THANKFUL like, ohmygosh finally! Thanks so much friends for asking me out :) Tried to ask Laura and Mary out but I guess we'll all be busy with PW this week so... we'll settle for next week.
I am slightly worried for PW. Lots of people keep saying that Fernandez is very lenient, and the marks she give aren't accurate... Gotta practise and pray up for Friday!
Maybe you shouldn't put this idea in my head... It's big (for me), it's fantastic. It's something I wouldn't even let myself dream of on my own because I'm not sure if I'm good enough to do something like that. But it's still something I wouldn't want to miss out on... I hope you understand that the higher you bring me, the harder I fall...
But! If this really works out... it'll be an experience I'll never forget (: |
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