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| "All sweet things are naive." I recently heard someone say this. And sad to say, I think I do agree. Lately I find that curiosity, is more and more so, killing me. Some things are better left unsaid. Better swept under the carpet, or left locked up in the closet. And yet, I still want to know. I still dig the past up. I still search for the answers that I'm better off not knowing. | | |
| Sigh okay I promise that I will not give up. Not yet. And I'll get everything back into order... soon. My mind feels like an upset mess, I think everyday I come home with a little bit more bitterness and sadness inside. I'm so confused... I don't even know what I want, anymore, with everything being thrown at me. I used to be so sure. The only thing I'm sure of right now is that I need a shower, and that I desperately need to catch up on math. Okay. Radiate positive energy. Sorry to anyone I've snapped at the past few days. And thanks Sulyn and Eunice and Chuyong and Theo and I have to add this in CHRIS! who's also going through a tough time... thanks all of you :) and everyone who has somehow helped me get through the past few days with your words of encouragement. It's greatly appreciated :)
I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn. That's what you get when you let your heart win. | | |
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I sit here playing mind games, fiddling with bare threads, waiting for something to happen. A word. A movement. Nothing. I've made a pool out of the silence spilled over. I've carved my heart out on the tree. Then both are shattered. Like a poison arrow through frosted glass, I saw it's shadow before it pierced the blanket that wrapped me, over and over; each word foreign, unexpected, abrupt, meaningless. Try again. Try harder, keep trying until you fix this. I make sense but the words do not. We both know I've entangled myself in a web I cannot see. The more I struggle the deeper I'm caught, and you say "let go" but I cannot hear your voice. I am screaming, telling everyone that I'm drowning and no one knows why. | | |
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